A little bit funny, and a little bit sad.

I woke up this morning to have my normal, obessesed computer time of seeing if anything happened in my Neha's country over my past evening.  I check my blog, and realize that I am looking to it to be updated.  What is happening in my girls world right now?  (well she's probably sleeping right now actually it's almost 9 pm for her) What is happening for me and my family that I should read about today?  I would love to read the story of my life as it will be.  But the truth is, i have to write it to read it.  Our story won't just be there when I have the time to check it.  I am so entrenched in the blogs of my fellow adoptive parents.  PAP's the agency calls us. so sincere. Prospective Adoptive Parents. Really gives us a lot of rights, that title. I have assumed other PAP's visions of travels and returns, tried to share in their joy and contentment. We see families pass us by, and stop blogging because they are so busy with their new children and new lives.  Then i wake up stuck in the same blog with no update.  Nothing new on our mission to Neha.  Just another day wishing i could be close to her.   

Wouldn't it be nice if your blog was your crystal ball?  Your way of making it so in the universe.  I would like to think that is true.  That is why, this is My Mission to Neha.  A willing of making it so.