It was about 2 weeks ago that I cried my eyes out. Two weeks ago that I felt so sad and forelorn that I couldn't hardly see out of my eyes. A whole day of everything making my sad, mad and just hopeless. Our momentum had been traveling along slowly but steadily forward to our girl Neha. We were actually on track to pick her up right around her birthday, July 17th. Awaiting guardianship from the courts in Chandigarh for almost 4 months. I even bought a few "blouses" (ugh, I hate that word) in anticipation for our travels in July. Apparently you have to cover cleavage and most skin. I randomly checked in with my agency regarding our court case..... Then, I got the response that kicked my stomach up into chest.
The courts close for Holiday for a month from June 15th to July 15th (although there is no mention of this on the courts website, hmmm???). We are of course caught in this closing. Our judge has now been transferred and we cannot expect to hear anything regarding our case until after July 15th. This information, put simply, means we will not be with our middle daughter this 4th birthday. We will not even be any closer to getting her this 4th birthday. We will be right where we have been for almost 2 years.... Without Neha.
After protesting and researching and once again thinking there was something I could do to persuade the system. I was defeated. The same old answer, "this is how India does things, we need to let them handle it".
Puke! that what I say to that. Obviously, India can't handle it. This lack of control is killing me.
I'm ready to stop being sad, stop missing her, stop being let down by bogus timelines. I am ready to gather my child and move on. Please dear universe, let this happen.
At this point, we hope to travel in August or September. I will believe it when the tickets are booked.
The courts close for Holiday for a month from June 15th to July 15th (although there is no mention of this on the courts website, hmmm???). We are of course caught in this closing. Our judge has now been transferred and we cannot expect to hear anything regarding our case until after July 15th. This information, put simply, means we will not be with our middle daughter this 4th birthday. We will not even be any closer to getting her this 4th birthday. We will be right where we have been for almost 2 years.... Without Neha.
After protesting and researching and once again thinking there was something I could do to persuade the system. I was defeated. The same old answer, "this is how India does things, we need to let them handle it".
Puke! that what I say to that. Obviously, India can't handle it. This lack of control is killing me.
I'm ready to stop being sad, stop missing her, stop being let down by bogus timelines. I am ready to gather my child and move on. Please dear universe, let this happen.
At this point, we hope to travel in August or September. I will believe it when the tickets are booked.
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